The war in my head!
The war in my head…. Screams it is OK to feel less than everyone else…..It tells me you don’t give a shit about me and I shouldn’t show you how I really feel, cause you will only laugh anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The war in my head….. Never fails to remind me that I for as long as I can remember, I have always been a fuck up and that is all I will ever be!…….My war blares constantly the half truths of my existence like the radio station of the damned……To tune it out means to feel the loneliness of the small hours
The war in my head dreams of passion I will never taste, of a life that lingers just beyond my grasp………………My war romances the touch of another that offers lasting beauty, but rings of pain eternal once I hold it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The war in my head knows honesty, goodness, and love… But only as passing capsules of longing that burst out the static of my reality and the knowing that they are only the dreams of the lost!
The war in my head lives thru the wonder of the world as seen in the bright lights of Hollywood Technicolor dreams………
My war is warped, twisted… jagged and distorted memories of the history of my life, and the misplaced words I always meant to say but never knew how until it was too late.
The war in my head weighs the relief of death and the price of letting all wash away……
Sometimes my war speaks in my defense to those I have hurt as the retched lawyer in a mental criminal court…..I hear the words of those I love speak as if to say they somehow want me to win my case, but never seem to appear
My war…… My dreams, my secret desires…… All seem so real, and possibly part of the foreseeable future, then they disappear as swiftly as they were once sweetly on my lips…………………………………..
The war in my head….. Knows that prices will be paid for all of my actions, no matter how I live my life today………..
My war… My life…..My passion, my dreams…….. My joke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
